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2025
1. Creating things
1. Writings
"Shut up and write" session 1 - 2025-10-27
"Shut up and write" session 2 - 2025-11-03
01. To be a boomer
02. Don't be overwhelmed!
03. To be a tpot zoomer
04. It flows, if you let it
05. Hospital cafe
06. Cornflakes
07. Travel day
08. Morning by the pool
09. Hill
10. After "Ship It Week"
11. Balcony
12. Misery
13. I don't know yet
14. Gold prospecting
Albums reviews from 2019
I hear you got some nice feedback today
Poetry with Jonathan
Writing - not good
Writing - Substack
Writing - vignettes
2. Creating music
Cornflakes song 2025-09-09
Fade to memory (song) 2025-09-11
Golden Line - Lyrics
3. Misc notes
DFW
Cliches are banal vs cliches signify profound truths
David Foster Wallace (parent page)
David Foster Wallace Audio Project
Manufacturing Intellect (youtube channel)
My DFW Journey
Oblivion
The End of the Tour
What "This is Water" means to me
Why do I love DFW's fiction so much?
2025-09-08 song ("I Mind")
2025-09-10 what should I do differently, ChatGPT?
Addicted to this new Hayley Williams music video
Archiving older things
Back to writing daily - quick Berlin retrospective and where I'm at now
Era 1 of making music and youtube videos
Expressive Mode vs Communicative Mode
I never got why DFW wanted to be a fiction writer
I want to make good stuff now - 2025-09-04
Mansplaining David Foster Wallace 2025-09-02
Meta - about "writing more!"
Morning Pages
Morning pages or something, 2025-09-02
Music making log (era 2)
On being a naive, untrained writer
On fiction (parent page)
What could the Alexnaissance look like?
What help do I want from Sasha Chapin re writing etc?
Writing - zero pressure at all
Writing from the POV of "parts"
Youtube comments
Writings - Appendices
06. Cornflakes - appendix
To be a boomer - appendix
Tpot zoomer appendix
z Archived creations
I am Nuclear Fusion Alex now (2025-05-11)
I have a youtube channel now! (2024-11-08)
Launching consensus-ism coaching! (2024-06-06)
No consensus to write anymore! (2023-11-02)
On being "in-group" - tpot vs EA - 2025-06-03
Paper journalling is better, actually (2023-07-07)
The shame post - 2025-05-30
The stories we tell about ourselves (2025-05-13)
Why I needed consensus-ism so desperately (2023-07-14)
Creating things (parent page)
On stuff that I love (parent page)
Writing more! (Parent page)
2. Connecting with people
Coaching
Coaching feedback Feb 2024
Coaching thoughts 2025-11-10
Community
How to make an intentional community
Microsolidarity
Rich Bartlett
Withholds
Feedback
Feedback, references
Post-it notes from the hippy retreat
Misc notes
"Live Near Friends" movement
Alex & Simmo group house in London, kick-off page
Alex and Simmo group house, parent page
Do we make an odd pair? 2025-08-31
Estimated London costs
Friendship
Gathering what people shipped at Ship It Week
It's possible that community could obviously be the thing for me (2025-08-28)
London vs Oxford for a group house
Max aura
Misc thoughts on living at the EA Hotel 2025-10-24
Monday, third time living at the Effective Altruism hotel (2025-10-20)
Nihilism slash dissociation at the hippy retreat 2025-10-10
Ship It Week log
Ship It Week, day 1 retro
Ship It Week, day 2 retro
Ship It Week, day 3 retro
Should I value in-person connection highly? (first pass)
Should we do the Fractal Campus accelerator?
Tweets about the importance of community
What am I doing at Ship It Week? 2025-08-30
What if we founded "Fractal Oxford"?
What is Circling and why do I like it?
What is next for me after living at my mum's? day 1
What is Ship It Week? (2025-08-20)
What turning 29 means in Chinese culture (according to Gemini)
Buy Me a Coffee
Calendly
On connecting with people more
3. Improving lived experience
1. Healing
Meditation, phenomenology
Notes
β'Handle your feelings about the task' is the zeroth item on any todo list"
2025-07-22 meditation open questions
Airpods are kind of insidious
ΔnΔpΔnasati (Anapanasati)
Fetters work 2025-08-23
Following aliveness
Going with the flow, consensus-ism, jesus take the wheel
I think I've solved "how do I meditate regularly"?
Meditation log
My podcast journey
Phase 1 of "healing" is complete
Sasha Chapin open awareness
Should I pay Michael Stroe to help me break aversion?
Simone Weil, David Foster Wallace, the Buddha
Skillful vs Unskillful Mind
The fetters model
Tpot, post-rationalism
Visual deconstruction via eye gazing and verbal debugging
Weakening fetters 4 and 5
Sit reports
Sit 000 report
Sit 001 report
Sit 002 report
Sit 003 report
Sit 004 report
Sit 005 report
Sit 006 report
Sit 007 report
Sit 008 report
Sit 009 report
Sit 010 report
Sit 011 report
Switching to open awareness practice 2025-08-08 (sit 010)
Increasing the skillfulness of my mind, log (2025)
Kensho
Meditation parent page
Paper notebook
45 Days to Awakening course
Deep Okayness
Enlightenment is possible
Existential Kink
Gendlin's Focusing
Ideal Parent Figure Protocol
Ideal Parent Figure Protocol is clearly the thing actually
Internal Family Systems therapy
Jhanas
Jhourney meditation retreat
Lefkoe Belief Updating
Memory Reconsolidation
My meditation journey so far (2025-07-20)
So you want to learn about the post-rationalist "healing" space? (2025-11-10)
TRE (Trauma Release Exercises)
Unlocking the Emotional Brain
Vygotsky
Who am I to criticise my parents?
Consensus-ism
Consensus-ism coaching - what's in it for me? 2025-11-04
Consensus-ism index
Family
Notes
Bowen family systems - flashcards
Call with my friend "S" - 2025-06-23
Call with my friend "S" - 2025-06-23 1
Call with my friend "S" - 2025-06-23 2
Current family project open questions
Going to family therapy with my mum!
Helping family - open questions
I saw a family therapist yesterday
Is it unethical to take my mum to family therapy?
It's my Dad's birthday today
Learning about adoption in the UK
Learning about ozempic
Meta - about the "how can I help my family" project
Meta - about the "how can I help my family" project 1
Meta - about the "how can I help my family" project 2
Meta - about the "how can I help my family" project 3
Microsolidarity crew call 2025-06-25
Microsolidarity crew call 2025-06-25 1
Microsolidarity crew call 2025-06-25 2
Microsolidarity crew call 2025-06-25 3
NVC flashcards
Other people working on the "parents as spiritual practice" thing
Starting "Growing Yourself Up - How to Bring Your Best to All of Life's Relationships
The ACES study
Visual metaphors for the "how can I help my family" project
Visual metaphors for the "how can I help my family" project 1
Visual metaphors for the "how can I help my family" project 2
Visual metaphors for the "how can I help my family" project 3
What I currently know about Bowen family systems theory
"How can I change how to orient to my family?" (Open Question)
Fitness
"How do I look after my body?"
Workout log
Making money
Notes
Effective Altruism
Model of "Centre for Effective Altruism"
Forecasting, Research
Model of FRI
Why work for FRI
Pandemic Action Network
π§ͺ Pandemic Action Network
Gathering PAN slash global health open questions
Global Health flashcards from day 3
Global Health flashcards from day 4
PAN orientation, day 3
PAN top-down model, day 2
Twitch stream 2025-06-27 - reading a report and making flashcards
Twitch stream 2025-06-27 - reviewing WHO and COVID response flashcards
Twitch stream 2025-06-28 - Top-down model of Pandemic Action Network
Why work at Pandemic Action Network?
Aha, maybe I'm a "professional meta-cognitionist", lol
Do I want to do a call with Happier?
Excited to be employed as a (self-described) Kegan 4
FRI (Parent Page)
Gemini Socrates - Outcapped
Handling my feelings about doing an FRI work test
I am now making money!
Money is a solved issue
My July 2025 spending
Preparing for post-job application feedback call
Setting a contractor fee for Outcapped
What actually is the FRI role?
Working with Rob at Outcapped, parent page
"How should I make money?" (Open Question)
Making money - log πͺ΅
Making music interactive
DJing
DJing
DJing - day 1 (2025-11-13)
Ridiculousness audits
I'm locking in some deliverables!
Imagining that my "open questions" are actually solved by prediction markets of experts, 2025-08-23
My relationship with making Youtube videos, 2025-08-23
My relationship with Twitter and tweeting, 2025-08-23
My relationship with writing on Substack, 2025-08-23
Ridiculousness audit 2025-08-23
Ridiculousness audits
The state of my "network of people working on the same stuff", 2025-08-23
The state of my in-person community, 2025-08-23
"How can I improve the quality of my lived experience?"
4. Thinking
How to learn
Notes
Learning examples
History
Ancient Greece
International relations
America
America & Immigration
AOC tweet re Andrew Cuomo
Middle East
Israel
Israel & Iran (session 1)
Israel & Iran (session 2)
Israel & Iran (session 3)
Israel & Iran (session 4)
Internet dialogues
Day 1 of trying to engage people on twitter via alt account
Learning techniques
Anki
Bottom-up learning
Fluency
Gemini Deep Research
Hermeneutic circle, hermeneutic spiral
Lemon tree β lemon curd β lemon pie π
My "make flashcards for me" prompt for AI
Popperian truth
Tacit knowledge videos
The Consume-Create Ratio
Top-down learning
Top-down learning unlocks care (and ego)
Why an Obsidian-based website?
Logging my journey
01. Writing up my own Socratic dialogues
Collection of voice notes
Learning Twitch Streams
Value of visual notes
π£ Project - "Are visual notes underrated and poorly understood?"
Are visual notes underrated and poorly understood?
Progressive iteration of visual notes - Pandemic Action Network examples
Visual notes are a form of active learning
"How can I learn effectively?"
AI walk-and-talks are such a great way to learn (2025-06-01)
Daily progress updates, streaks
I love you Gemini Deep Research
Learning to think the Defender of Basic way
My learning funnel (2025-05-27)
My learning journey
New learning era (?) (2025-06-13)
Reading fiction to gain non-propositional knowledge
The Anki FSRS algorithm made me weep (2025-05-30)
Misc notes
Life Reviews
July 2025 review
Life Reviews
Week of 14th July 2025
Week of 21st July 2025
Socratic Dialogues
Example dialogue, 2025-07-02
02. Book list re learning how to think
03. Manifesto - "Why I Should Learn the Socratic Method"
04. Path to becoming Socratic (AKA, what I don't know yet)
05. Learning the Socratic method, part 1 β the rationale (WIP)
06. Learning the Socratic method, part 1 β the rationale
07. Learning the Socratic method, part 2 β the "how"
08. Enneagram 3 thinking sins
09. I'm not good at the elenchus yet (2025-07-06)
10. Why thinking things through is aversive
11. Manifesto - "Time to re-assess full-time vs part-time work"
Alex's Obsidian Guide
Amusing Ourselves to Death (read 1)
Anticipatio Mentis
Aporia
Ask dumb questions
Astrology
Basic "how to make new pages and stuff" Obsidian guide for Simmo
Care is the number 1 thing
Circumstantial luck
Collection and division
Constitutive luck
Dealing with overwhelm at work
Death Ground
Dialectic and Dialogue - Plato's Practice of Philosophical Inquiry (Gonzalez)
Digital Garden (Digital Orchard?)
Espanso
Examples of thinking in public
Formal Ontology
Formal Ontology - books
Gemini Socrates - part-time vs full-time work
Gilman Equation
How can I operate from a place of uncertainty?
How does a Quartz + Obsidian vault differ from a normal Obsidian vault?
How modern life keeps us unconscious and un-agentic
How much better do I really need to get at thinking?
How to construct the elenchus
How to make a website like this
How to think in a rigorous way
How to use the Socratic method with other people
I'm overwhelmed! 2025-08-20
I'm overwhelmed! 2025-08-28
Ignoti nulla cupido
ILC (Implicitly Leaving to Chance)
Interpretatio Naturae
Kegan 3
Kegan 4
Making a second Obsidian Vault (and retaining your settings, hotkeys, etc)
My goals, values as of January 2025
Obsidian Guide - Phase 1 - A pretty writing space
Obsidian Guide - Phase 2 - A slightly more intentional infrastructure
Obsidian Guide - Phase 3 - Small quality of life things
Obsidian hotkeys
Obsidian Publish vs Obsidian & Quartz
Obsidian third-party plugins
Old website intro
Personal values & "rationality" sprint, v2
Prepping for thinking tutor
Red-teaming working for Outcapped
Resisting the urge to switch to logic or rhetoric
RLC (Rejecting Leaving to Chance)
RLC as the Kegan 3 to Kegan 4 transition
Sasha Chapin post - disagreeableness is a part of sincerity
Second round of learning from Ward Farnworth's book on the Socratic method
Self-anthropology
Setting up Quartz if you already have an Obsidian setup
Should I follow some of the prescriptions of Bonesaw?
Should I meditate regularly? (2025-07-20)
Simone Weil
Superprof Philosophy, Ethics tutor
Superprof tutor lesson 1 (The Fundamental Decision)
Tactically clever, strategically stupid
The case for not associating with the Effective Altruism movement
The elenchus
The first half of the elenchus
The Kegan 3 to Kegan 4 transition
The key themes of this site in 2025
The second half of the elenchus
The terrible pedagogy of (Michael Kerr's version of) Bowen Family Systems Theory
The tyranny of the propositional
Theory of change for how writing your own Socratic dialogues "works"
Thomas Nagel's 4 types of moral luck
Transmissionism
Useful concepts and mental models (parent page)
Using LLMs
Vervaeke's 4 Ps of Knowledge
What does it mean to be a professional meta-cognitionist?
What is the elenchus?
Why am I publishing stuff semi-privately?
Why do I dislike my Dad's region of Spain so much?
Why doesn't transmissionism work?
Work with the garage door up
Writing public-facing manifestos, slash showing your thought process, seems powerful
Writing to explore ideas
Wyrd
What does it mean to be in ORI?
Notes
My model of ORI
My model of ORI, 2025-06-23
ORI idea - Problems are actually already solved
ORI idea - the universe (you're a cell inside an organism)
ORI update & open questions, 2025-08-05
"What does it mean to be in ORI?" (Open Question)
ORI idea - Destigmatise being dumb
The streetlight effect
"How can I improve my ability to think?" (Parent Page)
"Thinking In Public" log πͺ΅
What makes post-rationalism post-rationalism?
5. Alex anthropology
Art I love
Albums
2016 albums
Another Michael β Wishes to Fulfill
Arctic Monkeys β Tranquility Base Hotel & Casino
Caroline Polachek - Pang
Dev Lemons β Delusional
Fontaines D.C. β Skinty Fia
Hop Along - Bark Your Head Off, Dog
Jane Remover β Census Designated
Jeff Rosenstock β HELLMODE
Jessie Ware - What's Your Pleasure
King Krule - Man Alive!
M.I.A. β Arular
Mick Jenkins β The Healing Component
Phoebe Bridgers β Punisher
Protomartyr β Relatives in Descent
Purple Mountains β Purple Mountains
Radiohead
The Voidz β Tyranny
underscores β Wallsocket
Vince Staples β Dark Times
Albums per era
Albums I loved per era
Era 3 - Middle School - Albums
Era 4 - High School - Albums
Era 5 - Sixth Form - Albums
Era 6 - Early Uni (1st year) - Albums
Era 7 & 8 - Late Uni - Albums
Era 9 - First job after uni - Albums
Era 10 - Master's - Albums
Era 11 - Rented house w girlfriend β COVID - albums
Era 12 - owned house - albums
Era 13 & 14 - Breakup β Prague β Grandma's β Living in London for a few months - albums
Era 15 - Asia - albums
Era 16 - Albania, Barcelona, xmas at home - albums
Era 17 - Life Itself - albums
Era 18 - Divine Period (post-Kensho) - albums
Era 19 & 20 - Toronto - albums
Era 21 - Making music & youtube vids at my mum's - albums
Era 22 - EA Hotel round 2 - albums
Era 23 - Job hunting at my mum's, family therapy - albums
Era 24 - Spain β Oxford β Berlin + hippy retreat - albums
Era 25 - EA Hotel round 3 - albums
Artists
Arctic Monkeys
Ben Howard
Car Seat Headrest
Cheekface
Childish Gambino
D'Angelo
Danny Brown
David Bowie
Drake
Everything Everything
Father John Misty
illuminati hotties
Jeff Rosenstock
Kanye West
Kendrick Lamar
The Beatles
The Strokes
ChatGPT - how to listen to music more
Getting into music again!!! 2025-11-11
Eras
Back to England for Christmas
Bangkok, Thailand
Barcelona, Spain
Era 15 - Asia
Era 16 - Back to Europe, Christmas at home
Era 17 - "Life Itself" intentional community -> Kensho
Era 18 - Divine Period (post-Kensho)
Era 19 - Arriving in Toronto
Era 20 - Toronto post-Jhourney retreat (the 5 Ms)
Era 21 - Making music & youtube videos at my mum's
Era 22 - EA Hotel round 2 - Rationality Sprint
Era 23 - job hunting at my mum's, family therapy
Era 24 - Spain β Oxford β Germany
Era 25 - EA Hotel round 3
Goenka vipassana meditation retreat in a jungle in Thailand
Manila, The Philippines
Return to Taipei
Taipei, Taiwan
Tirana, Albania
Misc notes
Aesthetics
Daily standups & end-of-day reviews
Disagreeableness arc (2025-10-27)
Holland Code test (career, vocational choice)
Human Design
Kegan journey (3 to 4.5) 2025-11-16
Manifesting Generator
Morning pages 1 - on writing more
Not caring about external things
Not wanting to talk
On feedback
Personality typing systems
Suffering is fuel
The enneagram personality typing system
tpot
Twitter profile analysis via an app 2025-10-25
Mythopoesis (telling my story, skillfully)
Enneagram 3
Enneagram 3w4 (The Expert, The Professional)
Gist updating
I was very lucky to be born into my body
I was very lucky to be so lovable
I was very lucky to enjoy every life era
I was very lucky to have a family who loved me a lot
I was very lucky to have a lovely girlfriend from 15 to 26
I was very lucky to have been passionate, opinionated and proactive
I was very lucky to have had the home life I did
I was very lucky to have my life arc
I was very lucky to have parents who massively improved upon the parenting they received
I was very lucky to know so many lovable people
My dad loved Lancias
Mythopoesis - "isn't this gaslighting?"
Mythopoesis - what and why
Mythopoesis (parent page)
Mythopoesis β "my dad massively improved on the parenting that he received"
Mythopoesis 1 - same life story, different conclusions
Mythopoesis approach 2 - a different life story
Of course I look dumb to myself in hindsight
Parents are x years into y year marathon
Should I intentionally tweet better? 2025-10-24
Why all the Alex anthropology bro?
WIP β Mythopoesis β rewriting the conclusion that "I was a loser in x era because of social anxiety
Alex anthropology (parent page)
My Eras (index)
Consensus-ism website
0. Start here
Consensus-ism summary
Flow state
Where does consensus-ism come from?
1. Layer 1
Consonance (AKA consensus)
Dissonance
Feelings
First Dart feelings
Layer 1 (perceptions, ultimate reality)
2. Layer 2
Layer 1 vs layer 2
Guy (@nosilverv) - sensations vs imaginations model
Layer 2 being foregrounded to layer 1 being foregrounded
Confusing yourself with language
First Dart vs Second Dart
Layer 2 (imaginations)
Second Dart feelings
3. False beliefs
Sub-beliefs
Distrusting our sense data
I can't trust my emotions
I have competing desires and have to compromise
I should push through resistance
It's selfish to do what I want
Trusting my emotions will make me irrational
False beliefs exist in layer 2
I don't know what to do
The core false belief β "Something I'm feeling is bad to feel"
4. Why you're suffering
Confusion and feeling bad
Getting stuck
Tension and avoidance
5. True beliefs
Sub-beliefs
All feelings are good
Feelings are signal
Feelings don't contain false info
No Guessing Rule
One unitary preference (no parts)
You will always have the info to make the next best action
6. Benefits
Happiness and productivity
7. Common pushbacks
What about unknown unknowns?
What if it starts to feel bad?
What if what I want to do is be lazy?
8. Appendix
Importance of dialogue
Importance of dialogue
More Knowledgable Other
Unconditional Positive Regard
Vygotsky
Zone of Proximal Development
Misc concepts
4 Path Model of Enlightenment
Alexithymia
Chanda AKA zeal
Clean vs dirty fuel
Listening to your body
Pendulation
Second Darts
The 3 horsemen of motivation
Misc skills
Feel your feelings
Gendlin's Focusing
Tips for living this way
People
Guy, Rivalvoices, nosilverv
Mark L
Michael Stroe
People working on similar things
Sasha Chapin
Simply The Seen
Resources
Books and sources
Decartes' Error
Mastering the Core Teachings of the Buddha
Saints and Psychopaths
History of emotions (ChatGPT)
This is a skill - try it!
Images
What if it makes me lazy (to follow my genuine desires)
WIP
People
Stuff from my personal obsidian vault
Terms that aren't clear
Various sub-beliefs in false beliefs
Wittgenstein
Home Page
2026
"A" ceiling
"A" drought
"A" storm
"A"s
"B" floor
"B"s
"U"s
15. Burn
16. Quest
17. Horns
A B U
Access concentration
After the ORI "A" storm (2026-02-03)
Being Kegan 4 is dumb, 2026-01-31
Do I finally have the "B" floor to meditate? (2026-02-03)
Doing stuff in order to Figure It Out and Arrive and Be OK
Getting back to Deep Okayness (vs Out-There-ism) (2026-02-14)
Inventing terms
Jhana 1
Jhana 2
Living in community
Log per day - 2025
MCTB
My "introvert" behaviour patterning and why I do it (2026-01-31)
Nosilverv
ORI
Polyamory
Reflexivity
Scrunching
Technical debt
Turns out writing for an audience is very useful 2026-01-31
Unscrunching
Why A B U is so useful for me
Log per day - 2026
Home
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